-bixie-

well as last nite was eventful enough...
coming home at 7 i definitely got an earful from the big miss loke...
and feeling all twisted emotionally...
all tired and drained...
i just didnt feel like doing anything
facing anyone...
explaining myself...
do i??
i am a terrible example to everyone around me
i'm a hyprocrite too
i keep telling my young ones not to do these things... but yet "look whos talking man"
damn damn damn...
life is quite messed up..
i so just wanna settle down..
and i'm tired of chasing... trying... moving no where..
i'm tired of feeling so much worse off than everyone else..
its sux...

but comes along bixie... with the biggest surprise of all
she bought me a present...
and ipod..
and all this was done when i was back home..
she knew i liked it..
she ordered it..
and ta dah..
when i heard that...
i just was once again i was reassured...
that no matter how hard the world hurts u...
how bad and lousy u feel inside...
a family's love
a sister's kind thoughts and love...
covers it all...
i love my sister becky...
how i wish i could be a better example to her..
how i wish i could make her proud...
for i know she makes very proud!!