- i hate coming back-

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i hate coming back!!! i HATE I HATE I HATE...

hello i am already 21.. cant u at least trust me to make my own mistakes and trust me to pick myself up once again.. cant u just trust me to lead my life the way i want to??

cant u jus barely scrap thru and learn the lessons..

cant u jus let me be???

I GUESS U JUS CAnT.. why.. cos the fact that i am still under ur roof.. under ur support under ur supervision... i am still ur child and yes i have to go by ur rules..

well the thing is i'm freaking 21 already!!! cant u at least let me go!! and let me do wat i want...

u were the one who encouraged me to do the summer subject dats the only reason why i'm taking it.. my frens who were supposed to arent anymore...

i know it sux to have to study while u are on holidae.. and i totally regret it...

but this happens EVERY SINGLE year when iget back

i ALWAYS GET IT FROM U THAT I AM GOINg OUT TOO MUCH...

is it my fault dat ive got so many frens to meet up with...

is it my fault dat these pple are actually impt to me..

is it my fault dat we freaking live in jb and takes me forever to get home when i go to singapore?

wats the point of coming back then??

tell me... jus to sit home and bum....

even when i'm home

we're either at each others neck or jus silent backs..

i'm tired...

u dun even wanna hear my story of why i wanna do things the way i do...

u jus want it done ur way...

well hello smell the air... i am not u...

and i've survived thus far by Gods grace...

u were the one who told me dat this year ur verse was that GOd is faithful to keep His promises

and yes i do belive dat HE is and He will..

i belive dat He will be faithful to watever He has promised me...

i'm jus gonna trust Him...

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u reallie spoil my holidaes u know by restricting me and pressuring me so much...

to tink now dat i wanna be a counsellor and listen to this crap but yet this crap is going on in my freaking life.. thanks ah.. so much for encouragement..