- i guess its jus all a dream afterall-

waking up this morning...

and looking ard...

looking through photos

BAMMMMmmmmm...

it jus occurred to me that i guess all my thoughts could just be yet another dream

i'm jus going through another one of those phases..

and ultimately the most important thing that i need to get out of my head is that

it aint bout me...

aint bout my love life

aint bout how much pple accept me..welcome me

it aint bout how much i actually fit in into different environments

be it here of over there..

it aint bout the slef centered self seeking me...

BUT

its all bout GOD..

he is the reason i live..

the reason i should actually go on living and do the best i can in everything for Him

i may have dreams...

i may aspire to be someone..

but it doesnt matter rite...

TRUST and FAITH

is what should spur me on...

Father, help me please be remineded each day that its all YOU and not bout me

in doing so.. i pray tat "i" will decrease and "U " will increase

in my heart, body and mind

Father, wake me up so i can face reality with YOu by my side!!

-dreaming of you-

late at nite when all the world is sleeping

i stay up and think of u

and i wish on a star

thats somewhere u are

thinking of me too

cos i'm dreaming of you tonite

till tomorrow i'd be holding you tight

and there's no where in the world i'd rather be

than here in my room

dreaming about you and me

yet another posting on dreams... sometimes i tink i jus dream too much

but this time its jus plain weird... or is it reallie part of Gods plan

well it all started when Mr K walked into my life..

he's a plain simple kindda guy...

nice, smart and Godly... everything you would dream for in a guy

hardly saw him thru the year but once again we did manage to meet..

well there werent exactly sparks between us...

but we got along and if i werent wrong

we had our little moments...

but anyway the point is... that i dun wanna fall for him..

but yet i see myself heading down dat road

back to dreaming... so as i lay my head down to rest...

i ask the Lord please help me get Mr K outta my head... but if he is the one for me..

let me dream of him toniteeeeee...

and trust... as shallow as it may sound i have prayed dat prayer many times

on the guys that i thought came into my life to stay for eternity...

but i have never ever dreamt of them... so wat are the chances for MR K???

well GOd knows why....

cos dat nite...

i did dream of my MR K....

and i woke up wondering is he really the one???

oh Lord please show me.... i pleaded...

and asked for another sign...

but none was given....

and then again last nite i dreamt about MR K....

oh why oh why...

i reallie dun tink i should .... and dun tink its rite...

but then again... could it be real???

dreams.....sometimes GOd uses them to tell u things and sometimes its just ur plain brain at work to spice up ur life....

which is it???....

i honestly dunno...

-my second home-

we're not that far from bethlehem

where all our hope and joy began

for in our hearts still cherish Him

we're not that far, not that far from bethlehem

yes oh yes its christamas time again....

and yes its a good time jus to hang out with frens and catching up once again...

yay!!! its jus so happy when u take a break from your routine life

and escape to somewhere far away

where the atmosphere is absolutely welcoming and loving

its the kindda thing u need to lift ur spirit.

the kindda warmth u need to feeel when u are low...

thats a place i call my second home...

and its jus amazing to feel so at home in a place dat aint exactly home

and i reallie reallie appreciate each and everyone of the pple who jus came along

to make me feeel special....

i used to come to this place to see the love of life.. at that point of time

of cos there were friends i knew there and met up with...

but of cos deep down inside i knew that my aim of going there was to see the one and only

sadly i tink i took these friends for granted and din understand how much they cared

however, THESE were the same people who stood by me...

accompanied me, spent time with me when i came down and saw him with another babe...

well quite a long while has past...

and now i finally can say that yes we are friends and i am thankful that we are...

on the other hand i am appreciative dat i can still go to this place and not feel ashamed,
rejected, alone...afraid of getting hurt cos i know there are pple who love me jus as i am here

this place is more than the best week of my life...

its more than a place i always got back to...

its home....

thanks