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yet another week has flown past me...
i hardly even realised it...
i jue feel that time really flies...
look at me... i'm already gonna finish my second year here in mleb...(if i pass)

oh welll... sometimes i jus wish and wonder why cant time be much more slower than it is...
why cant we have 30 hrs in a day... or 70 sec to make up a minute...
i jus want more time than i have...
everyday i wake up... and so many awaits me...
so many thoughts jus spring into my mind...
and cant but wish i could jus go back to sleep so i wounldnt have to think HOw do i allocate my time wisely
i run frm here to there doing this and that for him and her...
when will i ever have the chance to sit and rest...
is that wat my lifes gonna be....running about doing this and that?

i really wonder... on the other hand i wonder...
am i jus making myself busy or am i reallie dat busy...
do i wanna have SO many things to do to keep myself occupied
do i make myslef all so busy so that pple can sympathise with me
do i make myself busy cos i wanna help pple and all cos of pride
i dunno , i dunno i really dunno...

but all i do know is that i really wanna take things slow... and go with the flow..
i wanna do the many things because i like to do them and not for jus the sake of it...
i wanna rush frm here to there for the many different pple cos i love them and they are important to me
i wanna do what i do cos thats what GOd wants me to do and not jus something to get it over and done with
i dun want time to zoommm me by... but i wanna treasure each moment
and look back on the fond memories..

oh GOd this is my pray...
that You'll make me aware
of what YOu want me to do
so that i can use my time as YOu choose
that is pleasing in YOur sight
and this battle i wont have to fight

-thank you Lord-

And I thank You Lord
Yes, I thank You Lord
For the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day
As I let You lead

And I thank You Lord
For the patience those trials bring
In the process of growing
I can learn to care

But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do
Cause when those tirals come
My human nature shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored

this song has never reallie meant much to me other than another song of worship and appreciation and jus saying thanks to God... but as i sang the words todae...it finally jus occured to me what the words really meant...that God puts difficulties in our life so that we realise the importance of the dependance on Him and that we have to rely and trust in Him cos we are unable to go thru on our own strength...and in that way we grow each day as we let HIM lead and not me, myself and I leading

yeah and when those difficult times actually pop out.. my human nature DOES shout the things to do and more often than not i actually do give in to my human nature of responding and God's prompting is so so ignored...
and yeah i guess each time crap does happen... God is there prompting me to what he wants me to do... but my voice is always so much louder... i wanna be still and hear what He has to say...

today i jus realised that God does has His ways of seeing me thru trials....He jus does... and all ive gotta do is trust Him.. thank you Lord for helping me realise that it isnt the end when we fail... but yet You pull us up... thank YOu!!

-dreams-

recently ive been dreaming quite a bit.... actually it been quite draining when u dream... cos it takes up energy... i think... but all i know is dat when i wake up...i'm more tired than when i went to sleep...what doe dreams mean.... why do we dream???do dreams come true... God is there something u wanna tell me... or is there something thats been bugging me in my mind and i cant seem to let it go...why why why do i have so many dreams.... and why do my dreams haunt me and wake me up in cold sweat..thanking God that it wasnt real and only a dream....

honestly i dunno why... but i do know that it happens.. and sometimes it jus puzzles me....

-icky yucky mucky stuff-

my day cant get any better....
yesterdae when i was on the way down to clayton for prata...
while waiting for the train i realised the sticky icky gu-ie thingie at the back of my shirt...
my first response was "oh crap, bird shit" but nah itr couldnt be cos it was not white-ish so waht on earth was this sticky icky couloourless thingie on my back and how on earth did it get there...
so natural instinct would be to get it off asap... so yeah i had to touch it.. but i had no tissue paper... so yes yes i touched it with my bare hands... and i jus had to know just wat it was... soooooo i smelled it... but hey it din smell like spit or bird shit...it actually smelled sweet like soap...hehehehe but yucks yucks yucks... was so grossed... was sticky and bubbly sweeet smelling thing... and i tried to rub off as much of it on the walll....

and todaeee....
was happily taking a nice stroll down town for dinner... nice nice nasi lemak...or meee siamm...but yeah... nice walk down in the nice nice nite sky... and guess wat happened... as i walked past the park...where the million and one possoms live.... guess wat jus rolled into my shoe... (my shoe's the kind without a backing so somtimes little stone and stuff roll in).... a little ball or possom poo....
and i was i jus stepped on it in my shoe and was all wet and icky mucky yucky...
i was like why is it so wet when like the road isnt wet at all.. and so natural instict was to..... bend down and touch it... Big mistake.. BIG BIG mistake... and i smelt it.... EVEN WORST!!!!!!! almost died when i realised what has jus happened... didn't know if i shld shout and or laugh.... ahhhhhHHhhhhhhh was so horrible....
no more open back shoe for me dats for sure... never noe wat will roll in next....


i hate all this icky yucky mucky stuff.....

-why why why-

i'm in uni....i cant belive it..

i need to put in my assignment in less than 24 hours...

will i ever make it.... you think... i doubt so...

why why why

do i ALWAYS have to leave it to the night before...

is it the fact that the assignment is due yet another sunrise away??

i dunno... i reallie dunno...

when will i ever wake up and realise that I have to use the time i have wisely

and not sleep it away..

why why why

do i always sleep when so many things overwhelm my mind

but when i awake the problems are still there

why why why

will i only learn when i fail flat...

but i dun wanna fail flat....

but does the old saying go that u'll never learn till u fall

God please help me as i sit here and try to do what i need to do in whatever time i have...

i dun deserve of You what i ask

Lord have mercy on me please

But let Your will be done

- You'll still be faithful, O Lord-

Like the sun that rises everyday

You are so faithful

Dear Lord You are faithful

Like the rain that You bring

And every breath that I breathe

You are so faithful O Lord

Like a rose that comes alive every spring

You are so faithful

Dear Lord You are faithful

Like the life that You give

To every beat of my heart

You are so faithful o Lord

I see a cros and the price You had to pay

I see the blood that wash my sins away

In the midst of the storm

Through the wind and the waves

You'll still be faithful

O You'll still be faithful

When the stars refuse to shine and time is no more

You'll still be faithful

You'll still be faithful, O Lord

Each day comes and yes Lord You are faithful to wake me up and go about my daily things

Each struggle comes and yes Lord You did not leave me

But is faithful to see me through

Thank you Lord for being so faithful to answer each prayer I pray

Thank you Lord for bringing the people,

For bringing the smiles

And for being in our midst

Lord truly You are so faithful, help me Lord to have more faith

-faithful-

We're pilgrims on the journey of the narrow road

And those who've gone before us line the way

Cheering on the faithful, encouraging the weary

Their lives a stirring testament to God's sustaining grace

Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses

Let us run the race not only for the prize

But as those who've gone before us

Let us leave to those behind us

The heritage of faithfulness passed on through godly lives

Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

May the fire of our devotion light their way

May the footprints that we leave

Lead them to believe and the lives we live inspire them to obey

Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

After all our hopes and dreams have come and gone

And our children sift though all we've left behind

May the clues that they discover and the memories they uncover

Become the light that leads them to the road we each must find

thank you for being faithful,

thank you that through your faith i've been encouraged,

let us continue to have faith

that God will see us thru this

-for the first time-

-for the first time, i am looking in your eyes

for the first time, i'm seeing who you are

i can't beilve how much i see, when your looking back at me

now i understand what love is, for the first time-

hehehehehe.... i'm not in love for the first time... its jus for the first time i'm having this online bloggie

to tell almost the whole wide world how i feeel...

i NEVER EVER saw myself doing something like this... cos i always thought its reallie weird jus revealing ur dairy to everyone...and was really rude jus but then again... i think i'll understand how i feel more when i pen it down... hear wat my frens have to say and work thru it... and yes i belive that as i look back i will see how i've grown...

so ya... welcome to my world...